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I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.
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50 questions - stolen from blue
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two by two meme (so totally stolen)
1. Where is your cell phone? ..................my purse
2. Your significant other?.........................running errands
3. Your hair? ...........................................tied up
4. Your mother? ......................................crazy woman
5. Your father?.........................................long gone
6. Your favorite thing?..............................the wife
7. Your dream last night?.........................can't remember
8. Your favorite drink? .............................super star
9. Your dream/goal?.................................independently wealthy
10. The room you're in?............................my office
11. Your ex?..............................................lying bastard
12. Your fear?...........................................to fail
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?.................not working
14. Where were you last night?.................at home
15. What you're not?.................................patient person
16. Muffins?...............................................chocolate flax
17. One of your wish list items?.................new ipod
18. Where you grew up?...........................down south
19. The last thing you did?........................drank coffee
20. What are you wearing?.......................comfy clothes
21. Your TV?.............................................living room
22. Your pet(s)?........................................too many
23. Your computer? .................................needs replacing
24. Your life?............................................always hectic
25. Your mood?........................................mildly annoyed
26. Missing someone?..............................my mom
27. Your car?............................................black suv
28. Something you're not wearing?...........a beret
29. Favorite Store?...................................too many
30. Your summer?....................................no different
31. Like someone?...................................the wife!
32. Your favorite color?............................love pink
33. Last time you laughed........................last night
34. Last time you cried?...........................weeks ago
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Posted: 11:27 AM, 6/20/2008 |
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i'm baaaaaaaaaaack!
i'm back from vacation. not that you knew i was gone, but i was. it was wonderful! more on that later. i just thought i'd post some randomness stolen from phil.
1. Did you have to pay or did you get money back?
pay. withdrawing from your retirement plan and not having them take taxes out will do that to you.
2. What was your biggest financial mistake?
ruining my credit. the second time.
3. Are you a screamer?
most definitely
4. What part of your body, other than your genitals, do you love to have touched? What part of a partner's body, other than their genitals, do you love to touch?
for me, its the hip bone. when the wife touches me there, she always gets her way with me. on the wife, its the curve of her hip, from her waist down to her thigh. its delicious!
5. What commercial catch phrase best describes your life?
"sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don't." |
Posted: 5:07 PM, 4/24/2008 |
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finally! the movie quote meme!
i finalloy had time to get around to this one!
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Here are the rules I must follow:
* Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
* Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie.
* Post them on your blog for everyone to guess.
* Fill in the film title once it’s been guessed.
These are your rules:
* Leave your guesses in the comments.
* No Googling or using IMDB search functions. Don’t cheat!
* Know-it-alls, limit your guesses to three movies. Save some for others!
1. "I uh, I don't like my job, and, uh, I don't think I'm gonna go anymore." "You're just not gonna go?" "Yeah." "Won't you get fired?" "I don't know, but I really don't like it, and, uh, I'm not gonna go." "So you're gonna quit?" "Nuh-uh. Not really. Uh... I'm just gonna stop going."
[office space guessed by grimfairy and big p]
2. "You know when you hear girls say 'Ah man, I was so shit-faced last night, I shouldn't have fucked that guy?' We could be that mistake!"
[superbad guessed by texican]
3. "Finding someone you think would be fun to kill is a bit like, well it's a bit like falling in love. You meet a lot of candidates, and you like some of them, and they're nice. But they're not right. And that special one comes along, and your heart beats faster, and you know that's the one."
4. "Puff puff, give. Puff puff, give. You fuckin' up the rotation."
5. "Do you think our love, can take us away together?" "I think our love can do anything we want it to." "I love you." "I love you, Allie." "Good night." "Good night. I'll be seeing you."
[the notebook guessed by ben]
6. "Hey! I was waiting for that spot!" "Face it, lady, we're younger and faster!" "What are you *doing*?" "Are you *crazy*?" "Face it, girls, I'm older and I have more insurance."
[fried green tomatoes guess by texican]
7. "In Greece he spent a year in silence just to better understand the sound of a whisper. And so without further gilding the lily and with no more ado, I give to you, the seeker of serenity, the protector of Italian virginity, the enforcer of our Lord God, the one, the only, Sir Ulllrrrich von Lichtenstein!" [crowd roars] "Thank you, thank you, I'll be here all week."
[a knight's tale guessed by sarai]
8. "Look at me, jerking off in the shower... This will be the high point of my day; it's all downhill from here."
[american beauty guessed by ben]
9. "Well, what the hell did you know? Did you know how bad things were for me? No, because you wouldn't even open my letters. If you had even answered one, just one! Told me what a jerk I was, anything! But you didn't. You took your friendship away without even discussing it with me. So, thank you very much for forgiving me. But I don't forgive you."
[beaches guessed by ben]
10. "Hello. My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father prepare to die."
[the princess bride guessed by texican]
11. "I never fucked anybody over in my life didn't have it coming to them. You got that? All I have in this world is my balls and my word and I don't break them for no one."
[scarface guessed by bigp]
12. "Oh my god, you've made the tower of Twinkie! Is that in a stalker's handbook somewhere?"
13. "Do you smell burning feathers?" "Burning feathers?"
14. "Who is Keyser Soze?"
[the usual suspects guessed by sarai]
15. "If you were still in love with Pedro, you wouldn't be marrying John."
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Posted: 7:34 PM, 4/7/2008 in Here a meme, there a meme |
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i am...
no, this isn't another one of those posts about my conflicting opinions of myself or the many different sides of my personally. it is a "state of the union" in sections. i started with "i am defective" as the title and then realized i wanted to add few more things, so i added to the list of things that i am. so, for your reading pleasure (lol) here's what’s up in my world:
i am defective
some of you may remember that i have sleep apnea. it is not pretty, but it is reality. i was told first that it was because i was overweight. that began my first serious journey with atkins years ago. i struggled with it off and on, but never lost enough to make a difference (so i thought). then when i wind up at an ENT for some unrelated problem, he tells me that i have a "severely" deviated septum. yeah, i just get hotter by the second. i'm fat and i have a deviated septum. please, contain yourselves. anyhow, he says even if i lose weight, the apnea will probably not go away because the deviation is so severe. i enjoy being a deviant, but not this kind. funny thing is i've never broken my nose or anything. i just have a defective nose. anyhow, he suggest surgery and since i'm such a chicken shit, i pass. time passes, i gain all the weight i lost back, the apnea continues. i have a machine to help with it which i struggle with all the time. more recently, i finally dropped 60 pounds, no improvement in the apnea area. granted, i still have some to go, but you think you'd see a BIT of improvement. nope. none. nada, zip, zero, zilch. that would be too easy. last week, i get referred to a new ENT for unexplained diziness and i think "great, i can talk to him about the apnea," which i did. he said my jaw is set too far back making everything that has to fit in the throat kind of cramped. he said i have a "space issue" which i thought sounded kind of funny. so, surgery for the nose won't stop the apnea and neither will losing weight. this little newsflash is the best damn thing i've ever heard and the worst thing i've ever heard all at the same time. it is awesome because the painful surgery to correct my defective nose is not a necessity. he gave me a spray to dilate my nasal passages and said that should help. i'm a chicken so i'll spray some medicine up my nose every day for the rest of my life quite happily just so i don't have to go through surgery. on the other hand, this is horrible news because i find apnea to be embarassing and it makes me feel ugly. so, i had hope in the back of my mind that if i ever got up the balls to have the surgery (after i was convinced weight loss hadn't done the trick) that there would be light at the end of the "ugliness" tunnel for me. now there is not.
i am martha stewart's lesbian sister
inspired by my success, my grandmother asked me to help her plan a menu so she could start a low carb diet. now, i tend to eat the same stuff quite a bit and i knew she wouldn't be too happy with that, so i couldn't just give her a sample of my menu. i still cook or help wifey cook “regular” meals and always do something else for myself since i am the only one low carbing in the house. i usually fix something quick for myself in the interest of time. since I’m not picky, it winds up being a lot of grilled chicken and veggies. so, i dug up some recipes i had stored and searched online for more to build her menu. before i recommend them, however, i'm trying them to make sure they are decent. so, i've been cooking almost every day now. i have to say, i am LOVING it! i've made low carb "rolls", flax bread (banana nut bread no less!), hamburger pie, 2 different chicken casseroles and on and on. today i am eating the last of the mexican chicken bake for lunch. talk about yummy. oh and for dessert? low carb fudge! it is soooo good!
i am madly in love with my wife
some of you modblog peeps may remember the moyo files. for those of you who don't know, my wife is cuban and she is constantly making up her own pronunciations for english words which always crack me up. "moyo" was her pronunciation of "mojo". she turned hover into hoover. the list goes on. so the other night, i am telling her that my hands feel swollen and its really uncomfortable (its pms. yes, i know, LOVELY conversation. whatever, its life. besides, she’s a girl, she understands how i feel). i tell her i feel like a blowfish. she asked if that was like a "pucker" fish. not puffer fish, but a pucker fish. when i giggled she said, you know, "pucker' fish and blew me a kiss. i love that crazy woman.
i am on a plateau
i haven't lost a pound since we moved to the new house. i'm approaching two months of no movement again. i'm trying to be patient, but its getting harder. wavering willpower is never an issue for me, but patience is. my body seems to like to lose, wait, lose, wait, lose, wait. i'd rather it lose lose lose lose lose.
i am doing new things at work
i got a raise awhile back (over a year ago) because my boss wanted me to "revamp" the operations department. then they gave me a title. director of operations. umm... ok, thats why the vp still considers me his assistant, right? (that was what i was originally hired for) i was stuck in this running my own department/being someone's assistant gray area that was quite frustrating to me. i did a lot of the "operations" duties, but not all of the and the ones i didn't do seemed arbitrarily chosen by my boss to be kept as his tasks. fast forward to current events and the vp is FINALLY handing over the rest of operations duties to me. i am actually enjoying it quite a bit. its scary times out there for a small company in our industry, but i am taking the challenge on and i'm ready to REALLY revamp things now. work smarter not harder! being able to do what i need to do without waiting for someone else has really freed me up to be ... productive! so while most people are scared out of their minds, i'm feeling like a new woman. besides, i love a challenge. so now i have the duties to match the raise. only thing is, i need another raise now to match the new duties. LOL.
and finally...
i am outta here! peace, love and hair grease, peeps!
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Posted: 2:57 PM, 2/29/2008 |
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please forgive me
i'm in a horrible mood today. i don't know why, really, i just am. i'm ready to tell the next person to cross me a thing or two about a thing or two. therefore, i'm sittig quietly at my desk not saying a word. quiet as a mouse i am! :-)
*checks calendar* not pms... maybe its lack of sleep. maybe it is the sum all all stress in my life. maybe its cuz i'm a moody bitch. *giggle*
i'm so cranky that i didn't even post comments on the blogs i just read. i read them, i wanted to say something back, but i'm worried its going to come off as canned, so i figure i'll be quiet. please don't think i ignored you all. |
Posted: 3:03 PM, 2/25/2008 |
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i should have taken a left at albequerque
i’ve been thinking a lot lately. about who i am, who i was, who i thought i would be. inside i still feel like the same old me, but the outside doesn’t match anymore. it is partly because of the weight, but there are other things at work here too. part of me thinks that if i lose the weight i’ll be free to be the old me again, but i do know that the weight has nothing to do with it really.
a conversation with an old friend started it (this time), but those of you who have read my blog before know this is a recurring theme. i was a fag hag in high school and just recently reunited with both of my gay boys. :-) so i called one of them the other day and we chatted for a bit. he asked how i was, asked how wifey and the kids were and we proceeded to talk about them for awhile, and i mentioned to him how i never thought i’d find myself where i am now. he agreed and said “you are such a soccer mom!” he said he always thought we’d find each other again in new york in rehab for eating disorders. he said talking to me now is fascinating because it is an entirely different world than the one he lives in. he’s still him but i’m not me anymore. or eat least not the me i was.
then it occurred to me. its one thing for me to say i don’t feel like the same person anymore, but its another thing entirely for someone else to see it. funny thing is he hasn’t actually “seen” me. we found each other again on myspace and have been emailing, texting and sprinkling in the occasional phone call. so this is a conclusion he’s come to just based on our conversations. if he saw me now, he’d probably faint. back then you wouldn’t catch me dead in jeans, 99.9% of my wardrobe was name brand stuff, you’d never catch me with my hair up in a bun, with no make up or looking anything less than what i deemed to be fabulous. today i’m wearing jeans, a t-shirt and crocs (sorry splintered!). i do have make up and have my hair done, but i have definitely left the house without make up on many, many days and without question i’ve thrown my hair in a bun and run out the door rather than spend time primping.
i’m wondering… have i changed so much or have i just shifted my focus? i lean toward the shifting focus answer to that question, but that leads me to various others. if i’ve shifted focus, what have i shifted it to? am i neglecting myself and things i like and/or want? will that have ramifications? should i make an effort to stop it or just let it go given the fact that i’m happiest making other people happy?
i used to be travelling the road to ... well, i don't know where, but it went somewhere, i'm sure. however, i think i missed my turn. the thing is, i like the place i wound up (wifey, kids, dogs, etc). so is being different really so bad? i mean we all change, right? |
Posted: 2:15 PM, 2/20/2008 |
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